It’s over. I realized that I don’t have to do this shit. This is not me, I slapped my self to face the reality. I  want to tell you that you’re special to me. But.. I’ll just waste my time so I decided to stop. because at the end of the day I’ll just hurt my self, my heart.. I have a plan and I’m sorry if I’ll do this. I can’t believe how gullible I was when I believed you. You’re so fake, like them. Like the other guys that I met. I believed you, No second thoughts. I just did because you were the one who said it. that you will protect me because you are my body but why you disappoint me now? WHY NOW??? If I could turn back the time. I wish someone whisper to my ear that you will just hurt me before I replied to your message :( Maybe, the only way to solve this is to forget about you and continue my life.Thank you and we became friends even for a short time.

Last night I cried because of him, until now! :( Bakit ako umiiyak sa taong kaibigan ko lang naman? because I thought he is real and not picky. I pity myself I shouldn’t be like this. I am so pathetic!! :( Parang kahapon lang habang nasa jeep ako hindi ko namalayang lagpas na pala ako sa bababaan ko dahil sa sobrang kakaisip ko sakanya! Gahd! never pa nangyari sakin yon :(. I want to ask him some questions, bakit nag iba ka? nag expect ka ba ng sobra sakin kaya ganon nlang nangyari nawala na parang bula ang friendship natin? May gusto ka bang malaman? o may alam ka bang hindi ko alam?

I just want friendship, yun lang. Pero parang sa nangyari parang iba ang tingin niya sa relationship namin when we’re still texting each other. I don’t want to mention it. mahirap na mag-assume ulit pero yun ang nararamdaman ko. Dahil hindi naman siya iiwas kung wala special meaning ang friendship namin, sakanya. Bago niya ako makita.

Ok I admit that he is handsome but I don’t assume to be her girlfriend. Dahil kilala ko na din ang ex girlfriends niya ang they’re all beautiful. Pero hindi naman porket gwapo ka kailangan maganda nadin mga kaibigan mo db? Gusto ko lang talaga maging kaibigan siya.

Hindi maganda yung ginawa niya. It was harsh! Ok lang naman mabawasan pero hindi yung mawala. Wala naman ako ginawang masama para iwasan niya.Sa ngayon.. I’m not only scared to fall in love, I’m also scared to have a guy bestfriend :( Kasalanan ko din toh e bakit ba kasi ako naging sweet sakanya :(

Every time I watch sweet videos and read blogs about couples I can’t help not to get jealous because I want to experience that!! I can see that they’re really happy and lucky to have each other. How they gave their effort just to show to the world how they love each other. Yung mag vivideo sila kahit ordinaryong araw lang kasi ffor them it’s always a SPECIAL DAY when they’re together. Yung parang wala silang pinag aawayan at tanggap nila ang isa’t-isa. Nakakainggit pero nakakakilig din.:”>

special someone. special friend.

Araw araw naiisip kong itext ka pero narealize ko na kung gusto mo talaga akong kausapin, ikaw na mismo ang unang magtetext. Siguro ang taas ng expectation mo sakin kaya nung nakita mo ako, hindi mo akalain na hindi ako katulad ng mga kaibigan mong mala dyosa ang ganda. Akala ko hindi ka tulad ng iba pero choosy ka din pala, Masyado lang kasi tayo naging sweet sa text, kaya parehas tayong nag expect. Akala ko hindi mababago ang lahat pagkatapos natin mag kita pero mali ako.. mali ako sa pag kakilala sayo. Salamat sa konting panahon na nakilala natin ang isa’t-isa kahit sandali naramdaman kong may naging bestfriend ako.

I’ve been analyzing my behavior and I realized that I assumed too much. When someone is sweet to me,I expect that he is also sweet in person. But at the end of the day I am wrong again.. Love is not easy, it’s messy. I expect that he’s not like the other guys. But I think he is..

FRIENDS FOREVER :) <3

Thanks to Gucci and the comeback of bright colors in gorgeous textures such as silk, chiffon and sheer fabric, block colour blouses have allowed us to bring sexy back to our wardrobe.

Last Sunday. I pm-ed this guy because of my friend who asked a favor to me. She wants to meet new guy friends because she’s single again. And I remembered him. Hahaha. This conversation really made my day! :)

I blushed during that time, srsly! HAHA. It feels good when a guy said that to you pala :) heehee..

Ok, I can say that he’s almost perfect.But I think I’m not the right lady for him. Aside from we’re too far from each other, I’m afraid to be hurt again. No, I’m not saying that this guy is a playboy. I don’t know everything about him. I just want to make sure that the next guy that will have my heart will also be my husband :) And I think P is not yet ready for a long and serious relationship.

I met him at excess. He was trying to kiss me but I didn’t allow him. I’m not a slut, I just went there to have fun. Y’know! :)

Tama???

He said sorry. Nice! :)

That’s true. at hindi ako makkipag kiss sa nakilala ko lang sa BA. I just want friendship! :)

I know right! ;)

So last night I did something to myself. :)) dark eyeshadow :))

So this what I want to have right now! :) heehee. I’ll have an ukay shopping maybe before the class resume. :) this outfits are comfortable to wear. :) It’s so Fab! :)

waves

ocean

So we went to Baguio last February. I wasn’t able to blog about it because I don’t have time. So here it goes, It’s my first time to go there. srsly! We had a field trip in Baguio when I was in high school but I didn’t join. I just don’t like to stay in the bus for a loooong time. We celebrated my mom’s birthday.

little me. :))

The couple

strawberry taho <3

It was a long long trip. almost 12 hrs, I think?  Baguio was a beautiful place. But I think I will not go back because it’s too far :)) The weather is really COOL specially at night, glad that the house we rented have a heater and almost all we need are there. And the owner was my mom’s co-worker! great! The rent is 300 pesos per person and per day. Affordable right? :) It has 2 rooms and 6 beds and 2 bathrooms. I promise, it’s WORTH IT. :)

Hi! I just came back from Bohol. (Yes, Again!) We spent our holy week. This is what I’ve been waiting for! It’s all part of the plan 2012 is going to be awesome plan AKA the most magastos year ever. HAHA. I make sure that my summer worth remembering.<3

 @ Baclayon Church with my Family. This Church is made of REAL stones and eggs.

 @ Bohol Beach Club. The sun, sand & sea! I missed the beach. I will blog more about this resort.

Foods we ate during our stay in BBC. I really love it because it’s a native foods <3 Yum! Yum! Yum! :)) I really want to blog more but I’m too lazy. I don’t know why maybe I need an inspiration. Lol :))

These past few days I met new friends and they’re teens. Maybe our age gap are 1-5 years. :))) No, I’m not saying that it’s a big deal for me because they will like me. Gash I don’t assume that! :)) I just found out that they’re sweeter and nice compared to my guy friends which are older than me. When I have a problem they’re ready to listen, I was shocked because my “MANONG” Haha friends will just say: “Tama na yang Drama”. But when it comes to them it’s okay and they will also share their experience or problem too. It was nice meeting this people though we only met on facebook, BBM and twitter. Haha.. I really hope to see them in person ASAP. I hope we can be friends in real life! :) I’m just happy because I’m starting to have guy friends. Unlike before, no. I’m not a man hater. I just get conscious esp. when we’re already close. IDK why? haha. (feeling maganda?) Haha.

So agad-agad? Haha. So last night my bff and I had a bonding, we shared some advices *girls talk* :)) Because we’re broken :( K! enough for the drama. I realized that I am worth more than his lame excuses. And I should love my self first before I love someone else. I don’t need to rush everything because there are a lot of good guys! Maybe, I didn’t enjoy my single life because I’m not into flirting Haha.. but I promise when I found my Mr. Right I will not let him go. I will learn how to cook just for him, I will blog about him esp. our sweet and bitter memories and do some goofy things with him:”> (Okay di obvious na mimiss ko?) Haha. It feels good when you’re in love. I just have to make sure that he is the right one and He will accept me for WHO I AM. :)

I thank all the people who are always there for me. Ready to listen to my drama and they share some advice that help me to MOVE FORWARD and OPEN MY EYES. 1 shot to forget the past and another to welcome the future. *cheers*

Sometimes I wonder whether I have some sort of note in my forehead which says,”Don’t take me seriously”here’s the story, I’m trying to be okay and move the fuck on. He just ruined it I thought he is not like the other guys.We went out to a couple of dates, texted each other a lot, you know the getting to know you stage. Somewhere along the day, I realized that “Hey, maybe he’s different.” I started liking him since I first met him. Maybe, love at first sight is true. But after several days he suddenly disappear.

No more text and  no more call. Then one day I opened my friend’s facebook account and we found out that he has another account! and he is taken for 8 months!!What is it with guys with girlfriends? :| Whadya think of me? Just another someone you can fool around with? Well, You’re wrong. I trusted him, I thought he is different but no, he’s another asshole.

I don’t think I fall in love easily but when I do, I fall hard. Dafuq! Go on to your next prey. I wanna make sure that the next person I’ll give my heart to will be worth it. I’m tired of crying and I’m tired of pretending that I am happy but deep inside I am really hurt :(